my brain is overloaded with many thoughts after the all-star game, but i just need to put this out there: ryan ludwick is beautiful and great, dan uggla is my mortal enemy and yankees fans are the very, very worst in baseball and i could not ever adequately tell anyone how much it always shocks and angers me just how acutely they represent the grossest, most unsportsmanlike side of the game. the team is pretty awful too. worse than cubs hate, worse than duke hate. and i am done.
fingers crossed 07 014 2008
my whole life lately is about libraries, dogs, and doctor who. i really think that my love of the latter is pretty underrepresented here.
honestly i’ve been a tiny bit preoccupied with finishing series three of this show and trying to get over my irrational yet intense celebrity boner for david tennant. so preoccupied that i forgot to apply for a bunch of jobs i’ve wanted for a while, and ended up having a pretty frustrating time downtown this afternoon trying to turn in an application an hour before the closing date was officially over. i did it, though, i think. we’ll see what happens; fingers crossed.
in other news, tomorrow is angela’s 23rd birthday and my dad’s 44th. happy bday everyone.
stay positive 07 010 2008
regularly updating this is my new grownup goal in life.
this is a thing that is very important to me that i’ve been thinking about for a lot of my free time recently: you know how people leave coupons they’re not going to use in stores? frankly, i don’t know if this is a thing that “people” do or just a thing that i was taught/grew up doing, but anyway. while at target last week looking for some deodorant that would at least make a valiant effort to curb my summer sweating problem, i picked up a coupon for a fancy razor that someone left. because my personality does not allow me to a) not spend money when i can, and b) not spend money on a good deal, i promptly bought a new fancy razor for $1.00 instead of $6.00, the kind with 100 womanly blades and weird lotion strips and glitter handle. i was pumped about this value even though i always forget that when i buy GOOD DEALS i don’t need i am spending more money that i would have had i not succumbed to the lure of cheap. yeah, i know, welcome to adulthood in america, i guess.
basically, i haven’t shaved my legs in almost a year and really forget that it is a thing that people do. however, when i was buying the razor, i was buying it to satisfy some kind of curiosity more than anything else, just because i forgot what it was like to shave my legs and thought that maybe it was a thing i would like to try again? i also realized, kind of painfully, that i’d had a new job for a month, hadn’t once worn anything but a skirt or dress, and weighed the possibility that it was not that professional to be the hairy-legged new girl. i then considered how i’d slowly started exposing my tattoos while on the job and decided that if i had enough courage to show off my totally inked bod while getting paid, i could probably display my equally offensive body hair.
all of this leads up to a key decision: i’m going to shave my legs today before work because i am curious as to what it would be like.
when my newly-shorn self gets to work this evening, i hope the internet is working. last night it crapped out all over campus pretty much as soon as i walked in the door, which was a minor blow to my now intensely embarrassing obsession with google reader but mostly to all the patrons in the library. working evening summer hours at an academic library, i’ve encountered a fair number of students, but also just a lot of community members coming in to use the internet. it was such a bummer to have them come to the desk all forlorn and by the end of the night i was incredibly frustrated at how powerless i was to help them. i am glad i was not the one leaving voicemails for the helpdesk, as i am sure that the barely-controlled rage in my voice would’ve not endeared me to them. a bright spot, though: there were several people who either walked into or called the library because they were having problems connecting from their dorms, etc, and the fact that the library is so central to campus operation that we’re one of the first places students contact with a problem made me feel so good about my job.
that combined with how perfect the weather was when i left work (meaning not incredibly hot, meaning not raining) and how i got to drive the whole way home with the windows down and smelling the river when i hit the county line, i felt pretty okay about life by nighttime.
hello, internet. 07 09 2008
it’s been a while, internet. of course a lot of things have happened since i last updated this biz, and i think i mostly just didn’t know what to say for a long time. i probably still don’t, and still have a lot of feelings that have come and gone and some that remain unresolved, but here’s the main scoop:
1) dropping out of library school was a pretty good plan. i felt like i was giving up my dream for a while, then i went through this thing where i felt really stupid and impatient, but i was tired of waiting for the real thing to start. i felt really stifled by the idea of getting a library degree, having to do that before i could do anything else, and probably most of all i was just tired of being a student. a lot of things were weighing on me when i made the decision to take a break, things that influenced me to do it more than i would have otherwise, but overall it was a good thing to do.
2) i moved back to st louis and promptly got a job at a beautiful library, the kind of job that i was really longing for when i was in north carolina. i feel good about what i’m doing and already am fiercely loyal to where i work. i also have a new love in ILL and have learned how to make really bomb photocopies, which i realize is a stupid thing, but i always felt secretly bad about myself because i always made such awful copies, so there. i also really, really, really love MOBIUS and am unapologetic about this.
3) while i miss a lot of things about north carolina, i feel very good about being back in the midwest. i don’t know what it is, but i think that my heart is here no matter what i do and where i go. i am kind of obsessed with my own life, and am so grateful for all of the friends i have everywhere, but it’s been pretty nice to kind of take a breather from hanging out, from drinking and parties and focus on things like my family and my job. and, well, st louis is a beautiful place and i’m glad i get the chance to re-realize that every day.
4) i still have a lot of free time (which is kind of a bummer) and so i’ve taken the opportunity to keep abreast of things going on in the world. LIKE: lindsay lohan and samantha ronson, fox news vs. the rest of the media, the NL central and the anheuser busch takeover. and i am really very excited about mamma mia.
4) unrelated to pretty much anything else, i really think that i am slowly becoming a dog person. i. love. dogs. my brother has this beautiful pit bull that i am completely in love with. she is the funniest, sweetest thing in the whole world and constantly makes me want to bust out my long list of reasons why dogs are better than babies (or most humans, for that matter).
